Just A Dream

I find it hard to accept the fact that these 3 years,

Everything was only a feeling? Only a dream?

I guess,

I was just thinkin' about her,

Thinkin' about me,

thinkin' about us,

Where we gonna be,

As i open my eyes,

everything was only just a dream.

-ks

Closer To The Edge

Sometimes you gotta just,

back down and walk off.

And just keep on praying,

that everything will get better than you know.

I've never felt so empty in my whole life before,

everything is starting to fall apart but,

in the mean time the truth is starting to surface.

Yeap, time to keep my head up,

And just suck it all up.

-ks

Come Back

Broken dreams,

broken hearts,

someone show me the light.

I couldn't take it anymore,

the days are long livin' without you,

the nights are long and im growin' older,

i miss the days of old thinkin' about you,

you may be gone but you're never over.

Please forgive me and come back.

-ks

Rain Onto My Silhouette

“ Sometimes I love walking in the rain,

cos' then no one can see my tears.

But im standing by the light,

hoping for you to shine it on my life. "

-ks,

the weather today is just like how im feeling right now.

Please, Forgive Me.

Help me.

Im drowning with the storm of pain and fear,

It just won't disappear.

Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go.

Im stuck in between.

-ks

Confessions of a Wounded Heart. Dear / To : W

" Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control
Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go

What was left when that fire was gone
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And I don't even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So I'm picking up the pieces, now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again. "

If i were there to sing it to you,

i hope you would understand,

how much that actually hurt when you said that,

i had never ever blamed you,

in fact i took all the blame myself,

and it sucks when no one sees it,

but i keep it all to myself,

bottling everything up like i always do,

and over those sleepless nights,

im not here trying to say that you're talking about me there,

just wanted to make sure you get it right,

if you wanted to leave i won't stand in your way,

but leave without making any mistaken statements,

i was crazy about you no doubt,

i only wanted you to be the happiest person everyday,

every night sleep with a smile on your face.

Whatever it is,

whatever you said,

i gave it a thought,

and yeah i guess partially you're right,

but i will change i promise,

if only you'll come back to see a new me,

but if you don't i won't blame you at all,

i never did,

i'll just carry this valuable lesson along with me,

for the rest of my life,

knowing that i lost a friend like you this way,

punctures my heart and tear my chest wide open,

yeah like you said,

i deserve it,

thought you made a change,

a difference in my life and recovery,

i was always smiling because of you,

i'm sorry.

I wrote songs and melodies about you,

but its never gonna bring you back,

If you ever wanna come back,

its up to you,

I've already said what i have to say,

did what i have to do.

Im torn wide open.

Please at least just try to read this and understand my position,

I've been thinking about how to write this for the past four nights,

four sleepless nights filled with hell and mind-wracking thoughts.

But overall,

Thank you so much,

for showing me this,

and thanks for the memories.

I will always miss you,

knowing that you were such a good friend.

Im not sure if i know what it takes to move on cos',

the hardest part of the end is starting again.

love, -ks forever and always.

Returning.

Sometimes i just rather sit alone in a corner and maybe just .. think.

How long this journey has brought me and how much it affected in so many ways,

I thought i've changed but i guess old habits die hard don't they?

It was only last night that i realized that its a bit too late,

Maybe a text message from you may lighten my day,

But it just won't light my way, disarray.

So, i guess, maybe its time,

To leave this place, i've enjoyed my stay here,

But there are still things that you can't change,

And that sucks, believe me,

Thanks for loving me, believing in me,

So its back to the darker days.

I was so very afraid of losing you.

-ks